The Invisible Feelings

I walked to the top looking for the star,
You are the only star I could find in my clouded days,
Their I saw you with your beautiful shine,
Another colorful day you are going to give me,

I walked to the edge to reach the skies,
You are the only star I could find in my saddest days,
Their I saw you with the perfect light to brighten me up,
Another darkest day with brightest star to be with me,

I walked to the top looking for my star,
You are the only star I see when i cry,
Now I am clouded and couldn’t find ,
You are the only star that shined in my life in my darkest days

I walked to the edge of the roof hoping to find you,
I am too clouded now to see your light,
May be you are too far now to reach,
Another darkest day I don’t want to be alone,

I jumped from the edge hoping to reach the skies,
You are the only star I had in my life,
I flew up in the sky to reach the light behind,
And went deep down below,

I fell from there to the darkness,
I searched for your light to hold on to,
And got lost in this darkness looking for you,
You are the only star that shined in my life in those darkest days,
You are the only light that i had inside me,
Now, I miss you…

I don’t know whats going on around me,
I don’t know what to do when everything went wrongly,
Whats their to smile, when I’ve no one to share,
What their to cry, when I’ve no one to care,
My life seemed so lost,
And everything seems to be paused,
I dreamt things which are not real,
I searched for people who i wish they were real,
I loved the way i was,
I loved the way i pretend that i was,
I searched these darkness for any hope to shine,
Time did changed,
The sun did rise,
And I found my life did shined,
Shined with lies that you made me,
Lies that killed me,
Words that teared me,
Tears you left me,
Left me into these darkness,
Darkness i don’t want to see,
These demons that i don’t want to be,
My darkness is all i left to see,
Gonna stop fighting my demons to feel,
We’re In the same side now ,
I lost everything now,
but its you who lost me ,
not me, no…its not me,
its you………
I lost nothing except your lies,
you lied to break this apart,
you loved to tear me apart,
my eyes has no heart to feel the truth,
my heart has no eyes to see this truth,
i am not broken,
i didn’t fall to pieces,
its not the first time i have fell,
but its the first time i fell because of you,
I lived my life in a lie which i thought was true ,
These lies hurts me more than truth,
The life i made up by you was a lie,
I love the lie when you said i love you,
I trusted the one who i thought was real,
But the one i loved never thought i was real,
Getting hurt from these unseen wounds,
Hoping the one will heal this wounds,
Collecting my broken heart,
Going to a place so far,
A place no one can see,
Except me,
to ร๏๓ƹฬђƹг
…where i can be,
as long as i have hope,
to see the dreams i have,
i will go on with my life.
i guess….everything happens for a reason ,..

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All For Her

“All for the one i dreamt
I made myself to dream to the place where i never thought i will go,
I had the dream to reach for the place i never thought i will go,
I lived myself for the one who i never thought i will find,
I still live for the one who i never thought would leave me,
Days may change, times may pass, life has to move on,
Days did changed, time did changed, and you too did changed,
Why can’t you be the same?
Why did i remained the same?
I don’t know…….
I know now you are now way too far to reach,
But, my heart doesn’t know it,
It still beating for you,
which you don’t know,
which noone know,
…….
…..which is fading away now…
its too late now,
its too sad now,
is it over now,
or my hope will stays now,
i never know…
whether i still breathe
you never know..
you never care
I never care myself…”

Losing My Grip

“Feels just like lost everything…
Feels just like giving up….
Feels just like end of my life….
But…i won’t….
As long as i breathe …
As long as i live…
As longs as these scratches you made in my heart remains….
I won’t forget you….as long as i live….
not with these tears of not being with you..
not with these fears of losing you…
not with the pain of things you said to me…
but with the memory of the days we had…
with the feelings we shared…
with the hope that you will find me again…
….”

My Tears Of Yesterday

“The world i imagined is the same…
nothing did change,
it stil the same,
i’m going the way i came…
words are only words
they don’t make a change,
not did change you
not going change me
all the love had with you
is only left with me
all that i wish that someone to be with me true,
i know it not going to happen,
and you know i never gonna give up,
nothing remains the same always,
even you,
nothing remain too far always
even me,
you found me only to teach me how to live lonely,
living4you is only a word to you
but when you gonna know you are my only world to me,
you never need to know,
i don’t need to know,
going somewher,
far from you,
farther from me,
……………

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Losing My Head

“These wounds won’t heal itself,
This pain is just too real,
This world is so dark now,
My love hurts now,
I am losing my head now….”
Chains of emotions running in my head,
Time to Break the chain or break myself,



Forgotten??

“You forgotten everything ……..
Just like them……
You forgotten my feelings……..
Just like them……
You forgotten our love……..
and…..
you ..you……forgot me………
I don’t miss you….
I miss the one who loved me…
I miss the one i loved…

What ever may happen,
I will face this pain alone,
I won’t be forgotten anymore,
I won’t let myself forgotten by anyone….. anymore.
My Tears are not for your eyes anymore…
My Secrets are not for your ears anymore…
My Feelings are not for your heart anymore…
…
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My Hope….



“If the one is the one just for me and only for me,
And if the one really loved me,
Then the one will find me…….someday….”
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The Endless Rain
…… finally ..coming to an end.

long long ago…..(not that long),
i searched for you,
found many…..but, its none i looked in my dreams,
dreams are dreams,
but, still……those are what my heart wants,
so, i searched again for you.

not very long ago…(not that soon),
i found you, (not exactly i)
you found me…..but, its not the same,
all i ever could hear is your voice, ..(not exactly voice)
all i ever could see is your face,….(not exactly face)
neither i could hold you,
and neither you could do the same,
but, still…..
we loved each other.

recently …(jst now),
time changed like people,
and you changed with time, (which you said, you won’t)
words are not the same,
feelings brings too much pain,
i can’t feel myself again,
your disappearance ….i can’t bear,
but, still…..
i love you.

tomorrow, ( jst about to come)
i don’t know tomorrow,
i just know you only,
i know time will change once again,
i believe things will workout sooner,
i hope you will come back to me closer,
just like snow which falls again,
I hope you will come back to me again,
which i don’t know……
but, still……..
i know you love me.

The passing cloud…
The shinning sun…
The happiness what i wanted…
Never i felt….never it stayed with me for too long,
But something else did…
its my understanding towards life.
towards my life….
That I’m not alone in this world…
But i am alone with myself…
nor i understood anything…
nor felt anything…….
those feelings…
never i had….never it stayed with me for too long,
the shadows of darkness, is just another world,
just like reality of life, …
everything happens in my life….
neither it is happy nor it is sad…
never it stayed with me nor it stayed with me for too long,
what is life…..what is happiness…
is it what you showed to me?
where it is now?
its just like the rain….
never i know why it made me happy,
never i know why it left me …
is this life…..to teach me something …..
will this happiness ….will this happiness…will ever be permanent ..
or this pain will it never be permanent…
i just don’t get it…..
and i never understood anything…
will you come again and teach me?